The Waiting Room of Transformation: Trusting the Process of Rebirth

For many years, I dreamed of this version of me that I felt was always just out of reach. I could see her so clearly. The stability of a successful single black mom, the peace of prosperity, and the fulfillment of freedom. Many times, I found myself confused and even frustrated, wondering why certain events unfolded the way they did despite the truth I felt in my soul. It often felt like heaven was silent while my heart was truly crying out. I’ve come to understand that the pressure of waiting, and even when disappointed, does not mean my purpose has been abandoned.

The loud and silent moments of pressure were part of the process of birthing something new within me. Sometimes the prayers we pray are being answered in ways we can’t yet see. We often expect quick shifts and tangible blessings at a moment’s notice, forgetting that the unseen often holds more weight than what we can physically grasp at that moment. In my own life, answered prayers have shown up disguised as delays, redirections, and even endings. What in one second felt like disappointment was, in a minute, alignment with the higher purpose of my life. Closed doors right now are protecting you in ways that your human mind cannot comprehend. The pause is preparation for the table at which you will sit. The detour is guiding you to a destination you didn’t even know existed. Faith, in its truest form, is trusting that what you cannot see, even when you desire to see it badly.

I heard that pregnancy contractions come in waves. Yes, I am a mother, but my body did not contract with either of my children, which led to C-sections. Still, I heard they are painful as hell but necessary for a natural birth. Life’s setbacks are often like contractions, pushing us closer to the very thing we prayed for. When things don’t make sense, it forces us to lean into divine wisdom, faith, and deeper surrender. Life has a way of presenting seasons that feel impossible to understand. The timing feels off, the pieces don’t fit, and answers remain hidden. In these moments, our human logic can reach its limit, and that’s where we have to make room for a higher power to step in. Confusion isn’t ammunition to shoot yourself down. I’ve learned to see these moments as invitations to develop a new perspective with grace. If we had all the answers and lived the perfectly planned-out life we’ve imagined in our minds, we would limit what is actually possible. But when we stay open to the unknown forces, it draws us closer to the God within, and to a wisdom that sees beyond the surface.

It stretches our faith and asks us to release our need for control. Surrender simply means allowing ourselves to be carried by a higher knowing, trusting that even in uncertainty, we are being guided. What feels unclear today will one day reveal itself as part of a greater picture. Birthing requires both waiting and pushing. There are seasons when we must be still and seasons when we must act. The challenge is knowing which season we’re in. Just because the physical world appears to be silent to you, it doesn’t mean stagnation in the spirit realms. Movement doesn’t always mean progress. It takes time to process, but both stillness and movement carry purpose. Recognizing the rhythm is key to peace. When we learn to flow with divine timing instead of attempting to control it, just release the pressure of always having to “make it happen.” In the stillness, you're being filled with the vibrational frequency of the timeline you are praying for. In the action, we’re being poured and expanded as our purpose requires. Both are necessary, and both are welcome. 

If you find yourself praying and still waiting, know this: the delay doesn’t mean you are forgotten. Delay is preparation for divinity. What feels like a pause is often the space where God is aligning the unseen details of your breakthrough. Waiting is not wasted time; it's war, and you fight in gratitude for what you have already witnessed. In the silence, you are being strengthened. In the delay, you are being refined. And when it all comes together, you’ll see that every moment of waiting carried purpose.